Kate Bush
I fell in love with Kate Bush when I heard her scream.
Eccentric, English, as beautifully comforting as a cup of tea and milk on a
rainy day in a cottage in the Cotswalds, as much performance artist as pop
star, a pagan ambassador from the Wiccan Hyperborean, a familiar of wood nymphs
and Gaelic satyrs, a vertiginous voice that could scrape Aeolian cleft heights
as well as plod through swampy bass bottoms, and with a Poe-ish sense of the
macabre, how could anyone not love her? Which is why, as editor of the humble
magazine RockBill, I decided to put
her on the cover instead of—what was her name, oh yeah, Madonna (no offence to
Madge). But it was that scream that startled my neurologic circuits and
microwaved my heart. It came hurtling out of the mist in the chorus of the
flagship song, “Pull Out The Pin” on her masterpiece album, The Dreaming. The story—for with Kate
there is always a story—concerns the life or death decision of a Viet Cong
farmer/freedom fighter, grenade in hand, confronting his surprised, “pink-faced”
Tunnel Rat American counterpart in a godawful patch of jungle “with my silver
Buddha and my silver bullet.” But the scream, “I love life,” coming as the two
mortal enemies, both as ignorant of each other as they are willing to kill each
other, stand off in a Vietnamese showdown. Who exactly is screaming “I love
life?” Both of them, certainly, but aren’t we also joining in the chorus? If
you had to boil down all the philosophies of all the religions of all the
cultures of this world, wouldn’t the essence at the bottom of the pot be that desperate,
pleading scream, “I love life?” When I did interview Kate, I professionally
wrapped my palpitating heart in layers of gauze and asked her the questions I
thought I had to—the career, the songs, influences, the political paradoxes of
indigenous peoples, blah blah blah—not realizing that a more true, deeper, and
soul-enrapturing intimacy had already taken place. She cradled my head and
whispered into my ear, and—to paraphrase from “Houdini,” another song on the album,
she gave away the secret to all great escapes, including the greatest escapes
from the illusions we lock ourselves into—with a kiss she passed the key: “I
love life.” Kate and I would meet again. There would be more talking. There
would be wine and roses. But her tongue had already done its damage. “There’s
just one thing in it, me or him. And I love life, so I pull out the pin.”